There is a Military Base 15 minutes south of me, and once a day, a big military transport plane makes a slow approach directly overhead moving toward the landing field. The planes are huge, and it always amazes me that they stay in the air.
I try to picture the law of lift in my head sometimes when I watch them make their Zeppelinish approach. I'm fascinated by laws and unseen forces. Shapes and actions that can be harnessed to lift a 390 ton C-5 Galaxy in to the air and hold it there are really an amazing thing.
Ive been thinking about unseen laws lately. Universal laws that produce a result in the same way that lift occurs with the right shape and speed. People and cultures have observed these constants and have called them things like Karma...you will receive back into your life what you give.
It frustrates me sometimes that many of us marginalize the concept of arbitrary laws when it comes to the Spiritual realm. We either over spiritualize them and confuse them with Gods will, or we dismiss the idea altogether. Resignation, or dismissal...usually resulting from impatience or a lack of understanding. Its much easier to create a philosophy that eases the pain of loss that to face what has been lost in light of what you have believed about God.
Im at a point like this right now. Im having to face some things. Some difficult things.
Its strange that my relationship with God would be a main factor in the difficulty, but it seems to be. I keep thinking that it should be the opposite, but it isn't.
I think sometimes when facing loss, it is almost easier to not believe. That may sound crazy to some, but the thing I keep coming up against is who I thought He was, and who I think He is.
If I through my own choices, when I was trusting God to help me, am reaping the consequences of actions that I didn't fully understand the consequences of, there can be a temptation to guard your heart against Him. I'm just being honest here. In many religious circles you aren't even able to talk about being disappointed in God. Its heresy. God is perfect.
I do believe He is perfect. The thing that can be difficult to come to terms with is looking at Him with a totally open heart when you know He was able to keep you from making these mistakes.
I do believe that He works all things together for good, but I still wonder.
I believe the He will restore time lost, but I still question the game plan.
The thing I keep coming back to is that the most constant thing in the Universe is Gods character.
It can be difficult to face that the reason you made mistakes is not because God is ambivalent,
but because He has a long term view. As hard as it can be for us to face, sometimes allowing us to make mistakes can be the most loving thing that can be done...regardless of the pain. Pain is temporary. Love is eternal.
I think of truth in an odd way. There are some complaints about the current mindset that truth is relative. I have no problem with this because I actually believe that it is accurate. The statement you are driving on Straight St. is true to the number of people who happen to be doing that. It is not true to those who aren't. The statement you are driving on the Street is true for a greater number of people. The higher you get in perspective, the greater the applicability of that truth. Absolute truth is something that applies to everyone regardless of perspective or position... You are in the solar system, you came from a woman, God loves you absolutely.
The most universal truth is Gods character and Love. It is stronger than consequence,pain, loss, or regret. Pain is temporary, Gods love is forever. And yes... it is a consolation. In some cases, the only one left, and the only one worth having. As hard as it can be to move back into trust, it is the only sure place to stand.
The truth that Gods love will never fail is not empty. It is not without action. Gods love is never without action. So trusting Him to move you into the fullness of His love, regardless of how things look right now, is more real, more true, and more assured that any pain or loss. Refocusing on this...resting in this, letting it heal your heart, and move you out of the carefully constructed bunker of self protection, is the best answer. It can be the only answer.
If you insist on getting a why before you open your heart again, you can be waiting a very long time, and its hard to hear inside of a bunker.
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